Happy Birthday Tristen

So...it's July 26, 2014....Tristen's 6th birthday.  I did the usual thing...birthday mention on Facebook...bought a cupcake, a candle and a card...and celebrated my sons 6th birthday without him.  It's a strange thing for me...because I'm in the best place I've ever been in in my life...emotionally, spiritually...probably even financially...and a lot of that is because I gave him up...I still know in my heart that if I had kept him, I never would have truly gotten healthy.  Still...my heart hurts today... My son is probably opening birthday presents, getting Hugs from loved ones I don't even know, eating birthday cake...and not thinking of me for a moment...for all I know, he doesn't even remember me at this point.  I'm sure that's for the best...but it hurts my heart all the same.

I went out with a friend today...she decided she wanted to be my sunshine today...her words...and it felt good...it was good to be with people, and not seclude myself.  Yes its been a bit of a yoyo day emotionally...I've pretty much started crying every time someone 'likes' my facebook status today...but like I told my Mom earlier today...Yes it's a sad day...but my life isn't sad anymore...and I am so grateful for that. 

"Shout praises to the Lord ! He is good to us, and his love never fails. Everyone the Lord has rescued from trouble should praise him" (Psalms 107:1, 2 CEVUK00)